Animecat
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Invitation to the Park
I remember in Dec 2009 I met a girl. I was sitting at a table someplace and she started talking to me. I forget about what. I remember she looked me in the eyes calm, serious, gentle. looking into my soul. I was looking back at her and I felt safe and peaceful. She asked me to go to a park event. I said yes. I did not know where the park was, I knew the name. I was staying in a trailer and when my mom came over I asked her to take me but she yelled: "who is this girl". I have had times of just horrible emptiness sense then. Worthlessness, inferiority, purposelessness. I want to be creative and to not be alone. I had to be very quiet inside not to break down several times. I went inside myself and I am able to get feelings from people from the way they are. I am sensitive to the way another person is on the inside. I can read emotions and tell differences in people.
The girl and I have the same eyes. But I have no one to relate to. I go inward a lot. And most eyes do not look inside me like hers. I want to be seen from the inside. Someone I know is like that that shares the same need. Being known from within the soul.
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5/7/2018, 9:23 pm
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Re: Invitation to the Park
A person that will understand you and be there for you. Mutually. Is the ideal. All the couples I knew fought. That is why I can tell my needs will not be met just from just 2 minutes with someone. This little kitten may not look like it in text form but I am an empath when it comes to recognition of empath levels. I keep remembering the girls Interoverterted Intuitive eyes in 2009, they pierced my very soul. Me I am more like (do they seem, adult, do they seem empathetic, do they stair quiet at you, do the listen). I want my soul to be pieced again. Cats understand me, they would be there for me. If a cat trusts you, you know why they were staring at you. piercing your soul with their Interoverterted Intuitive eyes.
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5/9/2018, 1:08 am
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